I took a bath today. It was accidentally the sexiest bath I have ever taken. Now that I think about it, this was the first bath I had in my adult life. 

Now dear reader, I had no intention of making this bath time so sultry. Even now as I write I am in awe that I did indeed inadvertently seduce myself.

It started out innocent. I first lit two candles; in retrospect, let’s call that foreplay. One on the counter and one that sat on the side of the bathtub close to me.

I stepped into the bathtub and turned the nob to the far right. I squeezed some of my body wash into the bathwater and watched as the suds grew. I squatted down to be close to the flow of water from the faucet, feeling a slight fascination with such an ordinary thing. Sitting now, I groaned lightly in pleasure and a bit of pain as I basked in the way too hot water. 

I love candle light. It feels so fundamentally human. The candles reflected warm orange hues onto the water like I was bathing in hell; temptations were all around me. I watched as the water and soap suds glistened on my legs. I then crossed my legs, one over the other, and was filled with utter obsession. My heart started to beat rapidly and I struggled to distinguish if this was due to an unexpected arousal or the temperature of the water. I felt so sophisticated, so feminine. All I needed then was a cigarette and a glass of wine. 

I pushed my legs out to press against the far side of the tub in an attempt to move to resist the bondage of the hot water–however they stayed put underwater, obedient. 

I then put my leg upon the side of the tub and watched as steam danced off of me. 

I looked down at my stomach and felt something that resembled the shame and embarrassment of sixth grade. I then leaned back, deeper into the water and peered over my shoulder. I imagine someone looking at me. I imagine myself looking at me sitting so beautifully in the bathwater. 

So sensual this relationship with me and water is. She is playful and alluring when I see her wave at the beach, and now in the tub she is warm and lovely like what having sex gently feels like. 

I feel deep gratitude for the fact that I can feel so lovely and feminine in and about the water, and about myself in general. I love the water. I love the water.